Head over heals

Oh god, 阮經天 is so freaking handsome!^^ He is so hotttttt(shuai ge)! Same goes to Kid(: I am going to be crazy soon. Handsome hunks, why taiwan have so many hunks? Haiyer. And he is acting in 愛到底 together with 模范7棒 and 王子. Woohoo, I am so gonna watch the movie/ buy the dvd.

Anyway, SYF is 2 days away. Buck up, I am so afraid that I will fall ill the last min. Cos I have been eating lots of fried food recently. I don't feel like going school tomorrow, I don't know why. Felt so ... (i don't know how to describe) I just don't feel like going to school.

Got to go iron my band uni.

I am fed up.... with you.

Yes, you! Super annoyed today. Only Nadia, Gua Eh' and Jeremy knows. Had a conversation with GuaEh' just now, told him I was super annoyed and angry. And somemore, I don't know why, I was too angry until tears rolled down my cheeks. Anyway, GuaEh' explain to me alot of things. He told me not to pull a long, black face to the person although I may be angry with him/her.

I hope this advise would worked on me. Cos' I don't think I am able not to pull a long, black face on him/her. Really felt f.up and annoyed. I don't know why, my mood these few days was real bad. I get angry/annoyed/dulan easily. I just can't control it. Somehow, I felt like shouting, shouting real loud. Shouting out all my problems/troubles. Deep inside I felt pain, felt like crying but no one knows. Look strong,yet somehow am fragile.

I doesn't want my mood to affect me. Teach me how to stop my mood swing. Forget what happened today, for I don't know what might happened tomorrow. Should I forget it, I don't think so. I am gonna tolerate everything, till one day I can't take it anymore, I will then pour all my troubles out. So when that day arrived, I think I am gonna vent out all my anger.

"Xinfang, never cry for someone who won't cry for you. Brace up!"

Delete some part of the previous post, cos' of some reason. (personal, you doesn't have to know why.)

You guy got it wrong, or is it me?

Anyway, since I am on this topic, I shall talked more about GuaEh'. He treat me super bad, he whacked me, 'quarrel' with me, scold me. Idiot nia. But those are just games that we played, he in fact is a true gentleman la. I said this cos' I know he will read my blog sooner or later, so I cant offend him if not he don't want teach me, or treat me worser. Haha.

So the conclusion of this post is, Gua Eh' is a good boy^^.
(GuaEh' you better thanks me after reading this post.)

Having tuition later on with Gua Eh', he is gonna teach me on my mathematics(Chapter 4). I really suck at that chapter manzxz. And I am gonna get him to teach me physics(waves) as well. I am gonna get him to wish me good luck for SYF. ^^

SYF is like next tuesday, oh god. It's so fasttttttt. (wish me good luck:D) And I am not gonna be in school from morning till afternoon. YAY, no MT(hooray). I so want to have a long long sleep): I am exhausted for this whole week. Someone transfer me energy please.

Should I be mad or not?

Singapore Conference Hall

Went to SCH yesterday from 8pm till 9pm. Nadia told me that it cost $7 per minute over there. We rehearse some of the parts and change some of our sitting arrangement. Now, flute 2 sitting on the third row right beside trumpet. And this sitting arrangement is for SYF. Everything ended at 9pm. But the bus delayed abit therefore ard 9.30 then left there.

Reached school at ard 10pm. Keep instruments, took our bags and left school with Nadia. Phoned my dad up, told him that we are on the way. He met us at YewTee Mac and we had our supper there(: Saw Afiq working there. Hehe^^ And I had like 4 meals yesterday. Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner& Supper. Ate, and chatted there till11.15pm. Walked home, bathed prepare and slept only at 12.15am.

And woke up at 5.20am, this morning to go school for morning performance to th whole school. Reached school, tune and assembly start, perform for the school. Finished, went back to class and have our usual lesson. And therefore school continues from there till 3pm. After school went home with Nadia and here I am posting. Sending her to YewTee later on, cos she's going home as her mother will be back tonight.

There's P3 concert tomorrow evening, should I ask my parents to come? Advise please^^

皮笑肉不笑，肉笑皮不笑. (act it out for me!)

I find this sentence interesting. Ok, it sounded so random. Meeting Nadia later on at 5pm, Jurong East I think. Cos' she is coming over to my house to stay over. Then we will be chionging our homework together.

I feel like changing my blogskin to a simpler, plain & nicer one. But I don't know which to choose. Fickle-minded. Oh ya, my mom is willing to give me money to buy books!!! Woohoo, thank you thank you(: Anyway, I hate my bro. What's wrong with him manxzx, friends coming over to stay over night then he get so fed up over it. Whose friend is it uh ? It's mine ok, so please stfu.

I really don't understand, most of the time when I'm angry it often involved you. Take that IT show for example, YOU want a dell laptop which I doesn't want. And I want a Hp laptop which you doesn't want. In the end, I don't want any laptop and YOU say I fa pi qi. What can I do? I also don't want dell laptop. And whenever there's only both of us at home, you wouldn't even bother to answer a call when you are nearer to the telephone.

What more worst is YOU often order me to help YOU go downstairs or YewTee to help you buy back your lunch. Eh, hello. Am I your maid? For god sake, YOU want to eat, BUY IT YOURSELF. As simple as that, if not DON'T EAT THEN. Then if I don't do it, you rant your temper at me. Hello, I am not hungry and I am not your maid why should I help YOU buy it, when YOU are the one eating for it. I am not a dumb ass ok.

So, stop ranting if my friend(s) is/are coming over. It's YOU doesn't even bring your friends to our house. So stop complaining or even rant about my friends ok. If YOU are not happy about it, then YOU jolly well bring YOUr friend to our house then. Even so, I wouldn't rant at YOU. Cos' I am of a better temper person than YOU. So let me warn YOU about it.

(ICUCIC)

Busy weekend ):

Band exchange programme today, woke up late. Therefore was late for meeting Nadia. Didn't had any breakfast as they told as to reach school at 7am. But the exchange only starts at 9am, oh god. Forget it, the exchange was a good one.(I think^^) It was delay slightly, hence we only end everything and was released at 2pm.

Aftermath, Nadia & I(Ya, 2 of us AGAIN) went to Lot1 to finish up the "leftover's" homework. Which I still have quite a lot to complete): Was chased out by Mac as it was peak hours so we went to library instead. Browse through one of the books which I found it rather interesting and spent the rest of my time reading the book. I went home at 5pm, while Nadia accompanied her godmother& the rest for movie.

Reached home used com till now. I am busily watching wahsh & mfbbt(: But I am waiting for CIRCUS 狗仔隊 to be aired. Quick quick, I am getting impatient! (Kidding)

FYI: I ♥ KID. He is freaking cute.(Ahahahahah!)

He is cute right? ^^ ( You better say YES!)

I am so gonna get Low Kay Hwa's books. I only have one with me which is damn pathetic. I want to get 'I Believe You', ' Ýou Are Here', 'Destiny's Cries' , 'A Photogenic Life'& 'To Forget You' Must as well say the whole series-.- I ♥ his books. Damn interesting(: Argh, GIVE ME MONEY! PLEASE.

Woohooo. Nadia's coming over to stay at my house on Sunday& Monday(: Excited, excited, excited. Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait.

5th day of holiday.

Holidays assignments:
=Science chemistry
=mathematics
=D&T
=Literature
=English
=Social Studies

Completed Chemistry , English & Mathematics. Still have loads to continue, fed up. I am bored to death this holiday, band & homeworks are my priority. No shopping, stay at home and be 阿宅 (:

Did my maths yesterday with the help of gua eh. Studied at Lot1 Mac, our usual place-.- Nadia was around with us too, and we were talking craps. Aftermath, we went to popular to buy our stationery bought similar pens with gua eh. Hehe^^

Went back home, had dinner and continue to do maths again with gua eh(: So, I am left with only 1 maths worksheet undone. YES! I might not be completing it by this holiday, since there's no maths lesson on the first 2 days when school reopen & I still have others homeworks to complete. GIVE ME TIME PLEASE , GOD. ):

Ok, I got to go. Meeting Nadia later at cck to go band together. There's rehearsal today, not sure till what time. No time for homework today): I really had to go if not will be late. Bye.

Holidays Homeworks.

This week isn't a holiday for me and neither many of us. Homeworks, assignments piling up waiting for me to complete it. Also, this is already the fourth day of the week and I only complete my science chemistry(2 worksheets). I spent 4 freaking days to do chemistry. Oh god, how am I going to handle the rest of my homework? Especially literature): To make things worst, there's 3 maths holiday worksheet. Which I don't even know how to do.

Luckily I am meeting Gua Eh today^^. (You should know who your are la, GUA EH!) He is mine right after he finishes his school at 3pm all the way till 11pm. (I don't care!) I am sure he likes meeting me, right GUA EH?! Thick-skin GUA EH, are you happy that I write your name on my post? Be proud of your name, THICK SKIN GUA EH. I am so elated that I can see you later on. Wooooooo!

Meeting Nadia later on to go school together for band practice. 10am-1pm. So how's our rating? About the same right uh!? Hehe^^.

SYF- 12 more days. (Good luck^^)

Fed Up.

Went for IT show yesterday. One word : "Chaotic!" I felt nauseous and giddy inside the IT show, it was packed with people. When you are at city link walking to Suntec , or should I say , you could hardly walk. You can only move cause' people behind you are pushing you. Squeezey ): Hate it man , so crowded. And worst still, I am not tall at all therefore I kept on smelling those tall guys' butt. 'The feeling sucks man !

Spent around 2-3 hours there searching for a laptop. In the end, brother decided to buy Dell (which I think it sucks. Oh, I shouldn't be commenting, since I don't feel like using YOUR laptop & it is all yours.) Ok, fine. I showed my attitude to my dad & uncle cause' I wanted to have 2 laptop instead of sharing it with my bro. But my dad didn't want cause' he was afraid that my mom would nag. So I didn't bother much about it, but I got more worked up when they kept repeating whether I am upset about it not.

Which I found it irritating and kept quiet throughout and show a super black face to them. I really regretted not allowing my dad to buy for me another laptop despite him being afraid of getting scolded by my mom. But all cause' of my stubborn attitude which insisted on NOT wanting a laptop cause I think is a waste of money.

Although I wasn't really that angry but I don't know what get into me which made me so agitated that the moment I reach home, I didn't even bother to talk to my mom and I went straight to my room and sleep till morning the next day(I slept for 12 hours 8pm-8am, are you jealous?). And up till now, I didn't even talk to them for more than 10 sentences.

F* up . Should I continue my cold attitude towards them? (But I am still feeling a bit angry over it.)