I realize that what I hate about others often reflects back to myself. There's a saying, treat others the way you want them to treat you. Maybe, I should start to reflect on myself. Perhaps, the mistake starts from me and not others.
Let's see what I hate:
1. Hate being neglected. I don't know why my friends always tell me, 'I will be around.That's what friends are for.' But I hardly have anyone to talks to when problems arose. Where are you guys when i really need you? But still there are one or two which knows me well and really comfort me.
2.Anti-insects. OH, DID I EVER MENTION HOW MUCH I HATE INSECTS? Well, if I never did or even if I did I will repeat myself again. I jump/run/scream/shout whenever I see a moth(big/small). Mom always told me it's your grandparents coming back to see you. And I am always the one encountering with all these. I don't know why either, lol. I always shout for help when I see it. When will I ever stop being so timid/afraid of insects? They are my foes for life, I think.
3.Hate getting pressure from people around me.I am easily affected by this. I don't know why, I hate getting pressure from... anyone. I don't want to be the best cause I am afraid of falling at the end of the day. I am afraid I can never keep my standard/ maintain there. Because I will fall easily. To simplify things, I can never be the best because I am afraid... of falling. And this has always be my weakness, which I really want to overcome it but is always too afraid to try. Maybe someday when I have the courage to overcome , I will face it bravely.
4.Hate backstabbing. Tell me who doesn't, I will worship you if you don't. Well, some of the worst case are they don't even feel guilty after backstabbing you. I wonder if they have a conscious. If anyone have the guards, you can always talk face to face, there's not a need to talk behind people's back and end of the day spreading some so-called-rumors. Lowly, that's all I can say.
5.Hate those ill mannered kids. For god sake, I don't care how your parents treat you at home. If you disrespect them at home, that's your problem I wouldn't want to care. But please if you are at the public or at school, stop disgracing yourself by throwing your tantrum around. No matter how great you are, if you are wrong means you are wrong. You can never win by throwing tantrums. But, my sister is one of those that always thought she can win by throwing her tantrums around. But too bad, I am not so easily gonna let her go if she ever throw her tantrum at me.
6.Hate empty promises. I don't understand why people promises yet they don't keep the promise. That's the reason why I hardly want to promise/ give my words to others cause I am afraid at the end of the day I would just break it. Unless I have great confident in myself that I would do the promise as told, if not I wouldn't promise. Cause, I know the feeling of getting empty promises. I have lived with it for the past 15 years of my life. I wonder what make me tolerate it.
7.Hate those very arrogant, self centered and look down on other's people. You can be arrogant, but please don't show off in front of me. Detest it alot, so what if you are very good/ clever at things that others don't excel well in, have you never been told to be humble? Oh yes, I don't think there's anything bad about taking combined science. Fyi, I may not be as smart as you, but I study by understanding it not really by memorising unless I find that there's really a need to. Although I maybe lousy at understanding things fast, but I try. I am always abit slower at understand, only some of my friends know. I am not those very clever fast learner.
8.Hate to let others see/know I am crying. But sometimes, I really want/need someone beside me, which is willing to lend me a shoulder. A strong one, which is able to help me block all the rains and wipe my tears away. I don't appear to be as strong as you think. I do break down and want to cry at times when I really can't take it. Most of the times I cry because I am mad with either myself or close ones. But at times, I like to feign ignorance I like to act as though I don't care although it hurts badly inside. But still, I keep cool telling myself I wouldn't cry. However when no one's around, I cry alone. I bear it alone, not wanting to share it with others. I don't want to become other's burden, I don't want others to get worried about me.
9.Hate waiting for people. I don't like to wait for others so most of the times I made others wait for me instead if not I will reached on time so they wouldn't really nag at me. I really hate it when we actually meet this time already but when the time is up, the other partner still haven't reached and yet you have to wait like a fool there. TIME=MONEY, you heard before?
10.Hate being accused. Oh, I really hate it alot. If I never done anything wrong yet the other party insisted that I did, I tell you at that point of time I really wished I could scream right through his/her face. HOW CAN YOU ACCUSE ANYONE JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK SO. WHERE IS YOUR EVIDENCE, WHERE IS YOUR PROOF? YOU SEE HOW THE MATTER GOES BY THE REAL FACT AND NOT BY THE PERSON THEMSELVES.
I spent nearly 2 hours in posting this up, it really kills my brain cells cause I have to think of what I hate. I believe that there's still more things/people I hate but I can't think of anymore at this moment. My brain cells is really used up. Oh, and I think you guys would hate reading this entry cause it's very long and wordy. I am so sorry. But by reading this, you can get to know more about me, it's ok if you don't want to^^V. I won't force you.
Oh ya, before the clock strikes 00:00, I want to say 'Happy Father Day, I love you dad' Although I didn't get you any gifts(which I think I will go get it by this week, maybe a dinner treat or what. Suggestion please!!!) and I am not really good at expressing how much I love you although I always 'bully' you. But I still want to let you know that you are a greatest dad afterall.(I am not saying that other dad are not, but I just think that my dad is the greatest of all. Hah)
Ok, it's 11.53pm already 6 more mins to 12am before father's day is gone and gonna wait for one more year. I am done with posting already. My apologises if it's long. 
I think this picture of the scenery is really a nice shot. I found it while bloghopping. Really like it alot, I wonder where is it taken from?
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