Today is total crap okay . Mr Goh & Miss Chew didn't come so we didn't get back our CT2 paper , I don't want to even have a peek at it cos' I knew it would be a 'NONO' . Science was horrible looking at the graph Mr Fauzan did . Half the class failed badly . Yes , it is HALF . And I only have a freaking 25 mark pass . Nabeizxzxz , score only 25 marks when I studied like hell the day before . Then how about those that I never even bothered to studied ? I am feeling so disappointed and worried about myself , this should be the worst common test that I ever did .
I should have at least 2 subjects fail . Okay , blame me for sleeping/talking too much in class then . Nabeizxzxz lah . I should make myself mentally prepare for being the last few in class . Esp. when I did so badly for English when it is a MUST to pass English lor . I could imagine what will happen when Miss Toh passed me the English paper looking me into my eyes . Those killer eyes , what is going to happen next ? It keep as mystery , and it horrified me just to think about it . If I am already so scared for English , what about my History & Maths .
Mr Ramuzy walking in the class looking disappointed with us , Mr Goh with that ' what happen to you , didn't study' face & disappointment . I want to skip school and burn away/ tear away my result slip . Oh god , take me away for this split second , will you ? I felt a split second of disappointment in me . I should have know that this means alot to me , yet I don't give a damn fuck shit to it . I am so afraid to drop to Normal Academic , how ? Would this happen ? All these seems like number of atomic bombs one after another shooting at the same place . Leaving nothing left behind .
Comitting sucide is the ugliest thing I would said .
PS/ I am having a split second of fear after what Mr Benson Lee said today , cos' I am alone in the living room now , with dark light . I guess I would on the light whenever I pass by any switch .
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